Taking it slow.

So, it may come to a shock to some of you reading, and then again, you may already know, but i've met someone.

Not just anyone, but someone who connects with me in a way that I have not felt in awhile. The small things are the ones that really make me happy, and I don't know if it is the 'pre-dance' dating of trying to please someone and it will all go away after time, but....i'm not going to worry about that just yet. I'm going to enjoy everything and in the meantime, get to know him better.

I have a theory: A theory in which if you start a 'relationship' by fucking/having sex/focusing on the physical instead of the excitement of getting to know someone, then it will not work out in the long run. I can count the number of times I have done this in the past, and even if it is a relationship that lasts a few years, or several years---it doesn't work. It hasn't worked.

Obviously, I have feelings for this person, and care enough about the preservation of this turning into something else that I have not given up the goods. We even talked about the theory, and he has the same one. ;)

I'm not expecting too much, but not because i'm a pessimist, only because I'm happy with what is going on now, and *try* not to over analyze anything or rush into it. I'm not in a rush, but i am obviously in a position to live life, and live freely ;)

I still get scared if I think of whether or not this will turn into something serious, so that is why I am *trying* to focus on the here and now.