Yes, it is something that happens every so often among the years that roll by in my life, and I have never been single for more than a year.
Why? Because I'm stupid enough to find someone that makes my heart go pitter patter, and my loins melt without first looking around, and browsing the other candidates. In addition, my rush to want to get married has probably played a large amount into those decisions.
I have made it my goal to now stay single---for as long as possible. I'm hoping for at least a year. I would like to find myself, and to sew my wild oats, as it is. (not that i haven't done that before in the past, however I think i'm going through a pre-30's 'sew your wild oats' phase....Either that or it is just the recent relationship I have gotten out of that has made me this way).
In any case, i'm learning how to talk to guys, and well...let's just say that I'm not doing too swell in that area.
Why you ask? Well, any time someone starts to get a little possessive, I freeze. Don't get me wrong, I have made it very clear to every guy that I am not looking for anything serious. As a matter of fact, sometimes I wonder when I say these words if they are coming out in a different language because it seems as though they don't hear me say that.
In addition to that, I also tend to be sympathetic to some people, and that has not played in my favor at all. I do not like being known as a 'bitch' but then again, I'm also learning my way back into the social world of dating.
I recently found a book on my bookshelf that I bought over three years ago, prior to the previous relationship I was in: "How to Date in a Post-Dating World." It's actually quite funny, and somewhat insightful.
So what has it come down to? Myself reading a book to show me how to date? No, not really. I have always been strong on using experience in ones self to learn. It's the hard way sometimes, but how will I ever know?
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