Taking it slow.

So, it may come to a shock to some of you reading, and then again, you may already know, but i've met someone.

Not just anyone, but someone who connects with me in a way that I have not felt in awhile. The small things are the ones that really make me happy, and I don't know if it is the 'pre-dance' dating of trying to please someone and it will all go away after time, but....i'm not going to worry about that just yet. I'm going to enjoy everything and in the meantime, get to know him better.

I have a theory: A theory in which if you start a 'relationship' by fucking/having sex/focusing on the physical instead of the excitement of getting to know someone, then it will not work out in the long run. I can count the number of times I have done this in the past, and even if it is a relationship that lasts a few years, or several years---it doesn't work. It hasn't worked.

Obviously, I have feelings for this person, and care enough about the preservation of this turning into something else that I have not given up the goods. We even talked about the theory, and he has the same one. ;)

I'm not expecting too much, but not because i'm a pessimist, only because I'm happy with what is going on now, and *try* not to over analyze anything or rush into it. I'm not in a rush, but i am obviously in a position to live life, and live freely ;)

I still get scared if I think of whether or not this will turn into something serious, so that is why I am *trying* to focus on the here and now.

Bipolar Bitches make me wonder

If the title of this blog is offending anyone, I apologize, and if you are reading this and truly are bipolar, or have the tendencies to do so, then....I apologize in advance. I am only speaking of one particular person, whom I have worked with in the past for several years, and I put up with her crazy stories, lack of self control at times (i suffer from that as well), and everything else in between.

So why is this bothering me so much because I have been unfriended? Because the mental capacities of some people and the irrational decisions they make in a 'high' or 'low' point of their life should be questioned with a sane head before making those decisions.

It's okay-i'm rather glad I will not have to read her rants and raves about how she's having a horrible day, or how people don't know how to treat her right, etc...The truth of the matter is....YOU ARE CRAZY. I don't mean that in an offensive way-just a way that Yes, I acknowledge that you have your moments, I mean...don't we all???

Ask any one person who has worked with this woman. Yes, they would all agree the same. She gets off kilter sometimes. Do we spend our lunchtimes sitting around talking about her and nothing else? No. We spend 2 minutes remarking how insane her latest ranting and raving is, and move on. Why do we talk about it? Wouldn't you if someone spends their lunch break screaming in their vehicle at the top of their lungs?

I know that being bipolar is a chemical imbalance. I know that there are things they cannot sometimes control, but I also know a drama queen when I see one, and also one who will use excuses to ensure their craziness is okay to be that way.

I am no psychologist, I am not an expert on the human mind, although I like to think I am, but i am Faaaaaaaar from that.

Facebook. My parents did not have to deal with this when they were in their twenties. Unfriending a person just because you THINK they are saying something (because I am a firm believer in going straight to the source instead of dealing with triangulation), is immature, and while I am thankful (as previously mentioned) that I will no longer have to read her bitchy posts, I did write her a message letting her know how I felt about her actions.

That being said, I'm perhaps being a drama queen, but I like to think of myself as a good friend, and if i've opened up to you, and confided in you, I only want the same respect. I would not do this to you. I would not make it public to the whole world...but I retaliated so because...well...I thought there was enough 'good' in this person to be a little bit more mature.

Sigh, Sigh, tsk, tsk. I have friends who would not do this to me, and take the friendship I have to offer to a better level then she ever could. That being said, have a nice life and try not to kill anyone in the process. :)

P.s. If you are one of those great friends reading this, I just had to lift this off of my chest. ;)

Life is good, because I'm making it that way.

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.
- Confucius

Confucius is very Wise. Life, as we know it, can throw us some hardballs that sometimes seem quite unfair and very challenging, but I think that is the beauty of Life [at times].

It seems very recently, a significant population of those around me have been thrown all of this unfairness and curve-balls, and it is almost like Something, or Someone is trying to tell me something.

I think everyone should get personal satisfaction out of growing. Growing in the sense of learning from the past, and finding a balance between planning for the future but still living in the now. I would think that would be my overall goal of Life. I think that would achieve all aspects of my needs and wants in Life and still get me somewhere above average.

Confucius Say, Man who lose watch have shitty time!

Bahaha!
In any case, I will just have to keep on listening, and see if anything comes of it.

Horoscope of the Day: 02/17/2011

Machinery you are using does not have the consistency or reliability you are looking for.

This to me, when I read it, made me immediately think of my vibrator. My horoscope is right! It does NOT have the consistency or reliability I am looking for. Well, reliability can change based on battery life, but as far as consistency? It's not the same as an actual human body.

I don't know why I bothered to start of today by thinking like that. Perhaps I'm in need of a good romp.

There are times when a single person, who is lonely, just wants the companionship of a warm body next to them in bed, no sex added. This is hard to find, firstly because most guys want to go through with sex if they are in bed with you, but also because if you have a guy friend who claims he is ready for 'just cuddling' it may be unfair to them because let's face it....I don't think guys are capable of (one in particular) of 'just cuddling.'

This is why I keep myself at bay. I tend to have those that are 'fixer uppers' come to my attention, and then those that seem ready to go...well...they are unattainable in my book. This is what fascinates me. I enjoy a challenge, therefore I place myself in a position of patience (The P-word and myself are long enemies, we often do not see eye to eye), but in this certain situation, I think I am doing the best that I can, given the circumstances.

I get the small joys out of life in ways that others may seem to be eccentric. That's okay. I'm okay with being a bit eccentric.

I still wonder about the ex, and the last time we saw one another. My heart and mind are not coming together on this one.

I was telling a friend last night..."take it one day at a time." It's hard to do so, when you just want to get THERE (the point in which you think you have 100% happiness), but let's face it...no matter how happy you may be with someone, that's not going to make all of your other problems go away. Sure, the hormones of meeting someone new may make you feel like you are floating on cloud 9, but the surreal part of it all is, if you still have problems, they are going to come out, eventually.

So, my friends, it is time to cure thyselves! Learn more about yourself before delving into a serious relationship, and if you are dating in the meantime, give the other person the common courtesy that you are not looking for anything serious.

That simple :)